April62011
Thus far…
It has been a while since I’ve been on here, but a lot has changed since the last time I posted. I have a new out look on life and my situation. I have refused to be a victim or spend energy thinking about my now ex-husband and his new girlfriend, which he became official with less then a month after walking out.
I have bought myself a new car, which I did all on my own. Some people might not think that is a big life accomplishment for a 30 year old person, but for someone who has never been on their own it is a big deal. I have reconnected with friends and have realized that I am not the horrible person that my ex lead me to believe I was. I go out and have a good time and socialize and don’t experience the social anxiety that I did when I was with him. I am getting ready to put an offer on a house in the town I live and become a completely independent person. It’s not as scary to be independent as I thought it would be.
I am far from healed, but my out look is positive. I’m not discount the work I’ve done this far, but therapy and Prozac have helped a lot I believe. So have my friends and family though. My ex-has also done his part by becoming a total DB, actually I’m not sure he became that I think that is what he has always been, but spent the last 7 years pretending to be something else. I can’t blame him for being coming exhausted with pretending to be something he wasn’t, but still honesty and communication are the main things that I asked for out of our marriage and he was unable to give me either of those things.
From here on out I will start posting pictures of my new truck which I love and have named Virgil. Also pictures of the house that I am trying to buy, the house is very cute, built in 1945, it has tones of potential and will be a fun project.
